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Excerpt: When Angels Fly
June 21, 1990 – Thursday
Eli was sick to his stomach early this morning and then he fell back to sleep. After his morning cares, Eli drank four ounces of apple juice and kept it down. Eli’s morning ANC was 66, Platelets 152,000, and HGB was 9.4. I took Eli to the eye clinic, and he could now see twenty feet with his left eye and five feet with his right eye which was encouraging.
Dr. Landon stopped by to see Eli and said he was stable, but that there was yeast found in his stool samples. That was a downer.
At 12:30 PM Henry showed up and I left for a while. Then at 1 PM a meeting commenced. Present in person or by speaker phone were Lucy Stone and Frida Bales of EU Social Services, Zoe Penson of SRS in Durango, Henry’s lawyer in Silverthorne, Dr. Harmon from EU, Henry and myself. It was decided that we had to come up with a plan together that would work for Eli’s going home and that both parents needed to work with the provider of medical equipment, meaning that Henry must attempt to learn an IV pump and Eli’s cares. I initiated the phone calls to start the process of Eli going, home even though Henry said he would, but he never did.
Eli received his Vincristine chemo IV push while we were all in the meeting. Total Pharmaceutical Care arrived about 4 PM to arrange for new IV pump training and they would call in the morning.
In the afternoon, Eli broke out in hives and for this he received IV Benadryl. I wondered if Eli was allergic to Vincristine. I prayed he was not as that was one chemo medication he certainly needed.
Eli and Noah got to speak with each other around dinner time, and the smile on Eli’s face was such an illumination to my weakened heart.
Henry called from the Ronald McDonald House and yelled at me, saying, I would rather see the SRS place our boys into foster care than go home with you. That bastard cared not one bit about Noah or Eli, and I loathed him.
When Hannah called in the late evening, I spoke to Noah on the phone and I also informed Hannah of what Henry said about foster care. I cried with what that man was trying to do. How could one man be so cruel to his children? My heart broke with things looking hopeless. My faith was receding again, and I cried myself to sleep.
The Right Path ~ Listen To Your Heart
Last night I went to sleep with visions of Sam riding that hot wheels I posted yesterday; I remembered how he would ride in the hall of 5D children’s unit at KUMC, and then press the middle handlebar decal saying, “toot, toot” followed by a squirt of water at whoever was nearby. My dreams were blessed last night as I felt that Sam had come to me in a dream, as if Sam was telling me “angel style” that he was fine. I pray that my living son has a happy dream come to him soon as well, and when I give these items to my son he will feel and remember Sam so much better.
Excerpt: When Angels Fly
June 13, 1990 – Wednesday
I was up at 6 AM and both Eli and I had our usual morning routines. During Eli’s bath, I found a yeast infection in his groin. Worse, I found open areas, two of them, of his coccyx. These were both Stage II bedsores and preventable. Henry didn’t have Eli sleep on his side, just his back, and if his bed was raised Henry didn’t get the fact of shearing force on the skin caused bedsores, or he didn’t care. When I was not here the nurses weren’t doing their jobs, either, in preventing bedsores. I was rather ticked off about this as they knew Eli was susceptible to skin breakdown and infections. I had Eli’s nurse come in and see the yeast and the bedsores. Skin treatment orders for Eli’s coccyx were done and some nystatin was ordered for the yeast infection.
After looking at Eli’s labs I saw his ANC was 736, Platelets were 61,000 and his HGB was 8.1. Both Henry and Gavin arrived and they were just nit-picking everything. I was not sure why they must be this way. I knew, though, that I couldn’t let them know that Eli was going home or they would cause trouble and prevent that from happening. Everything was planned and set up perfectly. Arrangements were made through Dee Hardy for Eli to go home tomorrow. I was ecstatic for Eli, and Eli was thrilled to say the least. He wore a big grin knowing he would go home tomorrow.
Dr. Landon came in at 5 PM and more arrangements were made for Eli to go home tomorrow. Then I found out that about one hour earlier Henry had heard about the plans for taking Eli home and all the arrangements that were made in Durango and Denver. Henry took Gavin with him straight down to administration for yet another visit with them trying to cause enough trouble to prevent Eli from going home. All I could do now was to wait and see what happened as far as going home with Eli.
Dr. Mason pushed in Eli’s IV Vincristine and we chatted some more on how Eli was doing. Henry popped inside Eli’s room at about 8 PM and loudly stated that he was of the opinion that Eli wouldn’t be going home.
Upon hearing this, Eli cried. I comforted Eli as much as I could as Henry had left right after voicing his opinion. That bastard intentionally hurt Eli by saying what he just said and then leaving. He was such a cruel person. I did not think Eli would go home now as I believed the social workers would see Henry as a threat to Eli and they would make him stay for safety reasons.
Hannah phoned close to 9 PM and I talked with her and Noah. Henry had left and Eli was asleep so I just crashed again as I felt worn out from all the struggles.
Little Things Are Important
Excerpt: When Angels Fly
June 3, 1990 – Sunday
Right before noon, Eli’s name was announced on television on the Children’s Telethon with a $5 pledge, and Eli had part of the segment devoted to him. Eli was just tickled and loved seeing himself on the television. Eli was grinning and so was I to see him that happy to see himself on TV. We watched Spider Man using the VCR this afternoon and I had thought things were rather quiet for once. In the evening Henry phoned twice but not to speak with Eli. He just wanted to yell at me and to try and find out what I had planned down the road. I hung up on him twice. I was not sure if he wanted to know what I had told my lawyer lately, or if I had reported him to the SRS for not taking Noah to the doctor. I decided since I wasn’t sure what his problem was, I would just let him stew instead. After Eli had gone to sleep, Matt called me and we spoke for an hour or so, a more than perfect way to up the day even just a bit.
Feed Just One ~ Food & Spiritually!
Excerpt: When Angels Fly
May 29, 1990 – Tuesday
I hardly slept much last night as many things kept running through my head. I almost did not get away from the “Lion’s Den” (Henry’s) last night. One of the things Henry said was that I had to take Noah back to him today so that he could have him the rest of the week. That was pure bull. He knew I didn’t want Noah around my mother if I could prevent it from happening.
Today was going to be a busy day and it had barely started. I phoned Hannah with updates then I tried to reach Judge Sterling. He was not having his usual morning coffee yet. I phoned EU and spoke with Marci, Eli’s nurse, and with Eli. Marci and Eli knew I would be back sometime today. Eli albeit barely a boy understood that I must protect Noah the best I could. Eli knew this was why I came to Durango – so that I could keep Noah out of my mother’s clutches this summer. Eli understood that I was trying to ensure his brother stayed cared for at Hannah’s. Eli also wanted me back with him, but he told me he also wanted, in his own words, “brother safe.” It broke my heart that Eli at age five years already knew so much about the bad things in life. Were my boys robbed of their childhood by Henry and my mother?
Judge Sterling was still not with the guys drinking coffee yet so I called his home and finally reached him and informed him of what was going on. Then I spoke with Lawyer Shlock, lawyer with my lawyer, Mr. Troy, about Henry’s recent demands. We were going to get legal papers drawn up, signed and delivered. I called Hannah so she would be aware and be home. I called SRS for Zoe Penson so that SRS would know what we were trying to legally do for Noah. Lawyer Shlock was going to dig up an order signed by a judge previously; and then I woke up Noah and fed him breakfast. Afterwards Noah and I went to Shlock’s law office, and then we went to the courthouse with the court order Mr. Shlock found. The Clerk of the District Court for Durango County received one copy of the court order. Another copy went to the Durango Sheriff office, one to the SRS in Durango, and one copy to Hannah. Then I called Henry at home and I informed him that he would have to adhere to the original court order. The man went ballistic so I hung up. My mission was accomplished – Noah would have Hannah for the summer, or as long as I was at EU with Eli.
Noah and I headed over to Hannah’s house and my son told me that while his father was at the Ronald McDonald House, Noah and Uncle Gavin were left with Eli. Then my son told me that “something” happened yesterday and that Gavin grabbed both of Noah’s wrists and threw him into a corner of Eli’s room. I looked at my son’s wrists and saw that Gavin had left bruises. I was livid. What could a little child do to cause him to be thrown into a corner? We were almost to Hannah’s house and Noah simply told me that Gavin said to say “that Matt spanked him” even though Matt never did. Only God knew how much I hated Gavin right now.
At Hannah’s I looked over my son for further bruising and found none. I told Noah that Mama would make things right and then I headed for EU after informing the county attorney, Ethan Reynolds, of what had happened. Ethan said something would be done about this abuse and that I had to make out a complaint at EU since it happened at EU.
I arrived at EU around 2:30 PM and went straight to Eli’s room. I gave Eli a big hug and kissed his head. Eli smiled and I just beamed back at him. Eli informed me that he had received two radiations today. I took Eli to the eye clinic and they said Eli’s right eye was getting better again, that it looked almost healed. On the way back to his room Eli told me he had not had a bath yet, so when we got back, I gave him one. I then took care of his right eye medication and the radiation burn areas on his head, neck, and chest. Eli liked having Mama back. Later in the evening Hannah phoned and she told me to check with SRS and Zoe Penson about “mental abuse” as she felt Noah was being mentally abused by his father and Gavin. Hannah hoped that something could be done in this area, too, for Noah’s sake. I looked at Eli’s labs. Eli had 20 Segs plus zero Bands times WBC of 0.3 equalled ANC of 60. Good thing my mask was on. I wondered if Henry and Gavin ever wore a mask. I doubted it. Eli’s HGB was 9.1 and Platelets were 20,000 yesterday and so Eli received a platelet transfusion today. On re-check Eli’s platelet count was 46,000.
Hannah phoned at 7:30 PM and told me that Henry was demanding to take Noah from 9 AM to 9 PM Wednesday through Saturday. The man was nuts if he thought I would allow that to happen. I called Henry and told him his demands would not be met and hung up. I phoned Matt and told him what Noah had told me. Matt was angry and he wanted to talk with Gavin so I gave him the phone number, but Gavin was not there. Matt spoke with Riley instead and then he called me back. Matt wanted to know how to protect everyone including himself and I told him to go and talk with the county attorney and see what he had to say. I slept restlessly.