
The hospital is short staffed and full was his cry,
I don’t want my staff to get sick and die;
I can’t breathe, my lips are blue, said I,
You should have stayed home, was his blind eye.
Three emergency room visits did I make,
Two visits went well, the last doctor a snake;
What do you want, his voice a quake;
I want to breathe, I cried out for my sake.
© Mary L. Schmidt December 2020
A powerful poem, Mary. So sorry you had to endure all this and more. 💗
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Oh Gwen… The poem is much more. I will shared the whole thing in here. I’m only sharing two stanzas at a time on my blog. Pandemic Reality
By Mary L Schmidt, 20 November 2020
Here I am at home, completely alone,
Full of loneliness, in isolation with my phone;
One mutating virus separates us like a cyclone,
Not one safe place to go, only home I bemoan.
Wash, wash, wash, no hands touching,
With family and friends, no longer hugging;
As I try to breathe, my lungs are struggling,
As my heart, chest and alveoli are crushing.
One single virus brought me to my knees,
With each new day, my lungs squeeze;
I dread every day and I’m not at ease,
My symptoms worsen with this disease.
To the emergency room, I did go,
Positive for Covid-19, now I know;
My husband had a simple sinus infection, though;
Too late for me, little did we know?
He developed lethargy, and didn’t want to eat,
I gave him tasty foods that were sweet;
In an effort to help him eat better, I was upbeat,
Until the day I became viral incomplete.
With the Covid -19, I felt as if thrown,
Lost all scent and taste, desired not a scone;
Aching deep pain in every single bone,
The emergency room doctor said to lay prone.
My husband better, he was a false negative,
Yet my rapid test was a huge positive;
Received IV fluids and medicine, left me contemplative,
The doctor said to go home, I had no alternative.
Couldn’t taste food, but found peppered scrambled eggs worked,
My husband scrambled eggs with pepper every day, feeling overworked;
I could feed myself and drink; I could do it I chirped,
With my husband next to me, he simply lurked.
Shortness of breath and dizziness prevailed,
My husband increased my oxygen, I inhaled;
Falling to my knees as I walked, I surely failed;
With my husband at my side, falls curtailed.
Covid-19 zapped all of my strength and muscle,
Baby steps, baby steps, no need to hustle;
With further decline, I truly felt like rubble,
My husband did well to make sense of my puzzle.
Never sleep on your back in recliner or a bed,
Your lungs can’t aerate, the doctor said;
My husband repositioned me, I felt like lead,
With a gentle touch his love shown, and said.
I slept on either side or partly prone,
Slept three hours, then awake I would moan;
Dexamethasone, my new drug did I intone,
Dreading the side effects, I did indeed groan.
The hospital is short staffed and full was his cry,
I don’t want my staff to get sick and die;
I can’t breathe, my lips are blue, said I,
You should have stayed home, was his blind eye.
Three emergency room visits did I make,
Two visits went well, the last doctor a snake;
What do you want, his voice a quake;
I want to breathe, I cried out for my sake.
Labs, chest x-rays, fluids and medicine given,
Then back home as my husband had driven;
Once home, he helped me inside as bidden,
A simple sinus infection had much ambition.
My husband gently shampooed and showered me,
While I stood next to him, my bone pain beastly;
Gently he combed my hair, dried and dressed me,
Ten steps at a time, dizziness swirled like the sea.
Two weeks of 24 hour cares from my husband, I received,
My cough and shortness of breath unrelieved;
My time on Earth was short, I perceived,
I knew my husband and son would be bereaved.
Sure enough, many more people were stricken,
Businesses and churches closed or destroyed with division;
Wear a mask and wash hands was the new condition,
A mantra of six feet apart was the new volition.
Discharged home with Covid-19 pneumonia,
Loss of taste and scent, no smell from the begonia;
Weakness of speech, now hypophonia,
I was sent home without my nurse, Sonja.
I’m a statistic, one who survived, on the long haul,
Fighting, struggling, yet scared as I bawl;
It seemed life kept throwing a curve ball,
Everyone watched and awaited my downfall.
Too sick to dress or apply makeup,
I went to the doctor for a follow up;
Sipping clean water from a paper cup,
I’m afraid if I fall asleep, I might not wake up,
Now I’m on the long haul of this Covid-19 virus,
One small droplet of a viral germ not desirous;
Relentlessly, it still wreaks havoc like a bad retrovirus,
God’s faithful healing and prayers of many inspire us.
It didn’t matter, my saturations and respiratory failure,
No beds left in the hospital, everything was a blur;
No one there, I felt lost at sea like a lone sailor,
Slowly I became well with faith in Jesus, my savior.
He wanted me alive, my work not yet complete,
I started teaching about Covid-19 via a tweet;
Honest suggestions for all with each heart beat,
Doing His work, teaching, giving of self so sweet.
By Mary L Schmidt, 20 November 2020
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